Long Time…
Since I’ve posted anything, sorry ’bout that. But if your life is so lame you actually look forward to reading my latest posts to see what has been happening in my life, well, do I have to even say it?
In any case, I’d love to say tons of cool shit has been going on, but that’s not gonna happen.
Really my life has gone even more down the crapper. Work is really good, relationship stuff is good, the kids are good, that’s about it. But I’m so far behind financially I don’t know how or if I can dig myself out this time. Like three months behind in the mortgage, I finally start working, and I’m gonna make my first payment. I go to check my bank account online last week and it’s MINUS four thousand dollars. Like what the f**k? How can that be? I call up my bank to see what’s up…
Well, turns out I owed Sears two grand from like four years ago, things were going to shit in my life, out of work, and other stuff, so I chose not to pay them. Keeping a roof over our heads and some kind of food on the table was, in my mind, a little more of a priority than paying Sears.
So, they went and filed a judgement against me, and then they went in my bank account to get what they’re owed. Well since there wasn’t enough to cover it, my account is frozen. For a week now… Yup, that means no access to any funds, at all, so things have been really tight. They turned my cell phone off, but it was only 48 dollars past due so I got it turned back on. The internet is getting turned off any day now, and they already stopped picking up my garbage. Oh, and to top things off I’m almost out of fuel oil and I owe them money too.
I don’t know what to do, and the main part is I’m geting tired of struggling. I’m tired of trying to keep that house, carrying it all by myself, and every year and a half having some catastrophe happen or being out of work and falling behind to this point…
On the other hand, if I sell it I’ll walk away with practically nothing, I have horrible credit and would never get a mortgage again. Plus I like being a home owner, I like tinkering around the yard and trying to keep the place from falling apart. And it’s a really nice chunk of property. I guess what I’m getting at is I’m sick of being in this situation, feeling like the whole world is falling in on me and not knowing how to get out from under it…
I think I should be freaking out, but I’m not, I’m almost at the point of being numb. Thank God I can go to work every day and get my mind of all this stuff. You know, I just want to be able to catch up and not have to worry every night what the next thing is that’s gonna be turned off.
I dunno, actually writing this is getting me more bummed out. Lemme get going and I’ll update y’all soon and hopefully something will have changed for the better.
